Hey there World. I need some venting space. I've got about 5 billion different feelings inside of me right now...
We've been considering moving in January, into a nice apartment. The problem is finding a nice apartment, that is both affordable and close enough to campus. And I'm going to be completely honest, I really am just not loving Provo. I feel so cut off sometimes, not having any girlfriends to hang out with. That is mostly my own fault, it's been hard for me to make friends in our new ward. I haven't found anyone that I really click with. And I have yet to meet my Visiting Teachers. We've been in this ward for 6 months now, and I have never once met with them. I don't even know their names. Spencer's siblings are fun to hang out with, and I love it when Molly and Quintin come to town, but I just want real girlfriends again, that aren't obligated to spend time with me. I've relied on Molly and Aschylus for so long, I think I forgot how to make friends on my own.
That's enough pity party for now though. Work is going pretty well so far, I'm lucky to have a good paying job. Spencer is stressing out about the MAcc but he's so smart, they'd be crazy to not accept him. He's getting a lot of homework though, and I'm impressed at how good he is about getting it all done on time, making plenty of time for me, and being able to squeeze in his love of video games. He's my Superman (or Batman....) and I am so so lucky to have him right now. He keeps me tethered to real life, and is able to *gently* pull me out of my occasional self-inflicted drama :) He's doing such a good job though, I hate that he's so hard on himself. I'm glad that I get to spend my whole entire life (and then some) with him though, he's awesome in 1 billion different ways.
So there you go, you've had both the downer and the in love versions of Bailey. That's me, all sorts of crazy. Until next time....
Bails,
ReplyDeleteJust so you know... I know how you are feeling! I am terrible at making friends on my own! At least ever since I've been married. It's different. As for your hubby freaking out about school-work...mine is the same way. He stresses out too much, but he is amazing and intelligent. They are just too hard on themselves I think. I think it might be hard for me to live in Provo too but then again, we'd hang out all the time. haha. I love you! Keep on Keeping on!